GOD and ME or GOD in ME ?

I have been wondering these days about GOD a lot. What does this term mean to me? What does it mean to many? Does GOD have a physical manifestation like us or is it just an experience. If GOD has a physical manifestation then why does he have so many forms ?
It is interesting that the children get attracted to this word GOD. for my daughter GOD is like Krish. She gets fascinated by this . She keeps wondering as to can he do things like him, where does he stay , etc etc ...
I one day asked her to draw GOD as to however she thinks he looks like and not draw any of the existing forms, she came up with a unique form of her own . It was interesting to see her involvement and excitement in drawing GOD. We have all wondered at some point or the other about GOD.
Since time immemorial we have been told stories about GOD and on GOD. krishna said this in the bhagavad gita, this is what Quran preaches , this is what Jesus did . But if you see all these people said what they perceived from their inner eye. The truth . The inner truth to live a full, complete, happy life. Buddha , mahaveer, Jesus, Sai Baba are all GODS for they were successful connecting to their inner being, their own GOD. They could cut loose out of this vicious circle of SELF. Thats why we pray to those great beings as GODS.
I have come to believe that GOD is nothing but my true spirit. My inner true being. What I am and what I am not. I am born with it. I know everything and am here to experience everything.
Thats why whenever you are in trouble they say listen to your inner voice . what is it saying. what is that strong feeling you have , what do you think you should do ?
I believe that each person is here on his own journey. This journey finally has one final destination for everybody. Hence people get into this spiritual journey to give up their materialistic being to realise thier GOD.
This awareness has helped me in so many ways. It has relieved me of the stress that I have to do something et all. That I am responsible for my children , I am responsible for my house , family etc. When Khalil Gibran says " your children are not your children !". How true it feels now. initially it was very hard for me to accept, but this acceptance has helped me to help them understand that they have their own journey ahead. what matters is what they want to do rather what i want them to do.

Then what happens to this beautiful journey which starts of with lots of love, care, affection ?
Our journey becomes a miserable tour, for all the guilt and self blame luggage we start carrying along as and when we progress along the journey. We no longer enjoy our journey of life as we constantly are taking care of that baggage. We forget to look out of the window and appreciate the scenery around. We become so miserable and we start seeking GOD. We say Oh GOD help me I can't face this. You encounter people saying nobody can help you unless you decide you help yourself. How true again ? If I have closed all my windows, how will I look out ?

As krishna says in the Bhagavad Gita " Do your duty and leave the results to me " , which for me means do your best and forget that you are responsible for anything that which happens. How relieving this is !

Stop for a minute and make a list of all the things that you blame yourself for or you feel guilty about or you blame others for it.
I could have been successful if my parents sent me to a much better college.
I am responsible for breaking the family
I am responsible for all the misery my family is going through
I need to be blamed for my childrens future.
It was my parents fault.
I was the most unloved person in the family.
I blame myself for not being a successful spouse.
I should have listened then .
etc etc etc .......
We all have so much guilt stored within us. We constantly blame ourselves .
This guilt and self blame is the main cause for all our sufferings. Our subconsicous is our biggest enemy. It remembers everything . It doesn't want to let go of this baggage. It constantly keeps reminding us of the things that happened taking us to that vicious loop. We have formed a image about ourselves. framed some beliefs . Break open from these and you find yourself afresh. Who is to be blamed for anything that happens. Remember what krishna says. Leave the results to me. The need of the situation demands lot of things. So stop self blaming and give yourself lots of empathy. You deserve that. One thing to remember is that everybody acts with the best of their Intentions. (this has helped me a lot also ) Maybe sometimes the actions maynot be appropriate. " I want my child to be safe hence I will not let him go away from my sight. The intention is good here but the action may not be appropriate all the times."

There are these layers and layers of sufferings which we are carrying . unlayer them. stop self blame and remove your guilt. You are not responsible for anything. The love and compassion within you will surface and you will feel much lighter and much at peace within yourself.

Being Happy is the sole purpose of life is my strong belief. Being happy whether you are at home or by doing something is your journey which you have to embark on.

Everytime I think that I have my journey of my own, and my children theirs , I tend to be more loving and giving to my children ...........

There's no GOD outside you, He is within you You have to seek HIM to reach him..

happy journey..

your fellow traveller.